There's been another mass shooting. Are you wondering which one I'm talking about? Does it matter at this point?
Discussions of gun violence in this country are wearing me down.
The disconnection between what I see and feel and how people talk about the issue publicly makes me hopeless most days. I try to understand, and speak up periodically, but this is one area where I don't believe anymore I can have any impact. It's beyond depressing.
When I stuck my neck out at bit the first time I decided to voice my thoughts about the gun issue in this country, I was moved to do so by a mass shooting only a few miles from my home. I was out-of-state at the time, and showed the draft to my mom who told me I needed a line explaining what specific event I was referring to. I hadn't clarified "which" mass shooting in my first draft because it was a topical post and I felt as if everyone would know what I was talking about.
Now I wonder if it ever mattered.
I'm tired of inaction. I'm tired of frustrating Facebook chatter and recycled slogans. I'm tired of wondering why the worst possible thing that could be happening in this country in epidemic proportions--the violent deaths of innocents every single day--is regarded as just something that happens here.
I'm tired of this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this just being run of the mill stories anymore. Shocking for barely a moment before we move on to sports and weather, even though, strangely enough, there are parts of the world where any one of these incidents would be considered horrible beyond belief and become a cause for change.
I'm appalled that I've reached a point in being tired that I read a story about two people with concealed carry permits shooting one another to death on the road and my first reaction was, "At least they just took each other out."
I'm tired of some very vocal people offering only more guns as a solution. As if more guns could have helped a 3-month old baby from being shot in the face.
I'm tried of people dodging possible solutions by holding up different problems, playing a shell game of blame as if guns have nothing to do with any of it. I'm tired of people who think it's ridiculous that we "try something." Why not? It can't get worse. And if it does we try "something else."
I feel as if I can only share so much of what I've learned and what I think and that it goes nowhere. I'm tired of spinning my wheels on something so important.
I can only imagine how tired the families of the [insert mass shooting of your choice here] victims are.